Is It Enough?
Two weeks na ako sa aking work at nung una e I have this feeling na "Ha! I am contributing to civilization! I have a job! I am being productive!"
But is it enough that I feel that way? Am I supposed to feel this way sa trabaho ko? Because, honestly, I suck at my job. Secondly, I don’t like my job. Tanong nyo siguro while reading this: E bakit ako nag-nursing kung ayaw ko naman pala? Because it’s convenient. Kahit saang bansa ka mapunta e kailangan ng nurses.
But what I really want to be is an artist or to be a writer. That’s why I’m planning-just thinking-of moving to Iowa kasi andun ung school para sa mga aspiring writers. I do not mean na un lang ang school para sa writers pero sikat kasi sya kaya dun ko gusto pumunta para mag-aral ulit.
Mag-aral ulit… Kaya ko kaya un habang may work?
Another option is mag-intern sa 1 art gallery where I can learn & make connections. To have my name circulated in art circles. To be discovered. Nakakatawa nga kasi it has been such a long time since last I picked up a paint brush or even an oil pastel! How can I even begin to be discovered? And honestly, I don’t think I’m even THAT creative to make it. I’m self-delusional-to think that I want to be an artist e wala nga akong inspiration!May sketch pad ako-sobrang kapal na binili ko almost 2 years ago pa at 1 drawing lang ang laman!
