Nag-high school ako sa Stella Maris College sa Cubao,Cambridge street malapit sa Aurora Blvd. As with all girls school at sa mga dumaan sa high school, andyan ung usual na seniority (like,di mo pwedeng inisin ang mga higher years,that kind of bullshit), ung "on" system between girls, etc.Pero ang isang pinaka-weird na nangyari sa aking nung highschool includes none of these things. As a matter of fact, I could call this a mystery. I can sum it up in one sentence: I felt like some of my classmates were in on a secret about me. Para bang may ginawa akong nakakatawa pero di ko alam kung ano.
How can I tell? How about this: back in high school,we have our yearly retreats. One time, a classmate of mine said to another, "Wag kang tatabi dyan.." meaning me. She said it as if I have some sort of sickness, a jinx, or something! Here’s another one: back in my 1st year, pinag-kaisahan ako ng 1 grupo ng barkada sa batch namin & they kept saying na nagsumbong daw ako sa class adviser namin nakikipag-on sila! ( As if THAT was any secret in our school) But I bloody hell did not do any thing of the sort! Every break time, they’d try to talk to me in a corner & say that I did this, I did that. The pressure was getting on my nerves that I finally went to see the asst. principal about it. Unexpectedly,these group of girls got suspended. The situation was not that bad to warrant a suspension,really. But from then on, we hardly spoke to one another. Aside from their usual heckling, I was fine.
Mostly,I had a feeling that they wanted to stay away from me. I can make friends, friends that I still keep in touch with until now, but somehow there were people who try to make fun of me & the joke is lost on me. In P.E. class, we were practicing the head stand so our teacher asked us to tuck in our shirts. These group of girls started to laugh at me. I kept wondering why. Everyone else looks the same as I did,though.
I used to have good friend, and sometimes when my dad would come to pick me up from school in our car, we’d drop her off. It was natural to drift apart when you’re no longer classmates but this one was different. Somehow, she started to hate me. Started to hate my guts, something like that. In our senior year, we were classmates once again & happened to work together in a project. A few days later, she started to cry to her friend,while we were working in this project in our school computer, complaining that I was not helping her! How was I supposed to know what to do? We didn’t have a personal computer back in our house at that time! She was just bawling her eyes out complaining! She sounded stupid to me anyway..
Then there are times when some of them would hold their breath, watching & waiting to make a fool out of myself when I had to do a class presentation. What was that all about? They’d even heckle me sometimes!
Looking back now, I ask myself ," Would it have made their day to bring me down?"
